Well, I think that I can contribute extreme emotions to all the hormones of pregnancy, right? I'm going to anyway...Well, not completely. Today was a girl day, through and through. I got a manicure (a valentine's day gift from my one and only that I've been saving for the perfect time to use), went shopping for clothes and for home decor, and went to a fabric store to research baby room possibilities. The sad thing is that I did it all alone! What fun is a girl's day when you're by yourself? Well, I guess I wasn't totally alone. The "little one" has been energetic today! I can't believe how often I'm feeling movement from the mini-Bierma today. :) Pretty cool.
So as I was driving home from the fabric store my indecisiveness created a surge of hormones and I started balling. Not a good thing to do while driving in traffic. I just felt very sad. I missed my female relatives very much. Today would have been so much more fun with another girl!! I don't know why I didn't think to plan today's activities on a day when a girlfriend could come along. That would have been better. But after shopping for maternity clothes and really needing another female's opinion (and asking the store clerk as a last resort), then needing my mother's sewing advice at the fabric store - I just felt isolated from women!
Women of my life: know that you are loved and needed! Even if you are far away! Brad is wonderful, don't get me wrong. But he's not a girl. I love that about him, by the way, and I wouldn't want that to change - at all!!! He's loving and supportive and tries his best to act as my full length mirror (I don't know why we still don't have one!) but he's not a girl.
So I'm feeling much better, by the way. And a girl-friend is coming over tonight to help me evaluate my maternity purchases. I have a habit of leaving the tag on until I'm absolutely sure that I want to commit to the clothes, but that often takes a few days with some things.
How do these posts always get so long?
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